STOp ME!!

maybe i stop my time when i am still high school, so i can't go and only stand in the same times. and never feel if everyone has changed.
They said if i am childish, they said if i'm still like past. Yes!! Maybe i stop my times..
All i have now, it's just because i can't forget everymoment i did with my best friends.. but they run away and me?? Yes!! I'm only see them and i never do anything. I know that but i can't go..
They make me be like this... pleasee, really. I want have a friends like them.. pleasee!! They know me well, they protect me, they made me smile everyday but now?? Friends that i have, may i call them friends??